Because I'm often accused of oversharing I like to project an air of positive self-confidence without taking myself too seriously, I'm just going to keep my worries about Sunday's marathon to myself.
I'm not going to tell you that I'm wavering between serious self-doubt and periods of occasional terror about this marathon and just report the part about getting excited about the challenge.
I won't confess that I'm dreading driving 7 hours to Wisconsin alone. I'll just claim to I'll enjoy the opportunity to listen to whatever I want, stop whenever I wish, and eat wherever I choose.
I won't admit that my feelings are really hurt that my husband isn't going to come along for the trip and cheer me on. Instead, I'll grudgingly accept that I'm not the center of the universe and be thankful that my he puts up with my being gone for long runs and bike rides, doesn't complain (too much) about the cost of entry fees, and takes care of the kids while I'm away. And I'll be grateful for all of the support I've gotten from my online and real-life friends, both the ones who run and the ones who would only run if being chased by someone with a knife.
I won't mention that I'm nervous about the fact that my longest run to date was 21 miles. Instead, I want you to know that the longest run assigned by my training plan was 20 miles, so this self-professed slacker actually went an the extra mile...literally.
I'm not going to complain about losing a couple of weeks of training to a foot injury; instead, I'll profess to be happy that I'm able to run...however slowly that might be.
I certainly won't acknowledge that I'm a little sad that my long run pace has dropped considerably, leading me to do a lot of math on my long runs. If I run 10-minute miles it'll take me...if I run 11 minute miles it'll take me...if I run 12 minute miles it'll take me...if I run 13 minute miles...please don't let me run 13 minute miles. My story is that I just want to finish; any time goals can wait til next time.
I'm not going to tell you there won't be a next time.